it's been awhile

it's been awhile ..... and then thoughts rush through, it's hard to keep up .... i had to make myself pause and slow down ..... how does one do that? how does one stop the rain from coming or the sun from shining?

seems like a simple drought at first .... but it is simply waiting for the time and place ... a condition of the heart ... for what pours forth is but an overflow of its contents .... from the mouth one finds the heart of another. it can be filled with deceit, it can be filled with truth, yet one thing is sure ..... it comes from within.

should i continue or should i stop? the glare of the computer screen sometimes feel so cold and uninviting ..... so sterile. yet, why be defeated by a machine? why should one stop to contemplate the joys of pen and paper underneath the light of a lamp?

always so many questions to ask, always wondering the what ifs ..... answers have a hard time keeping up to the questions why.