i love you
I LOVE YOU! *an email to a group of friends :)*
hello ebriwan,
there are times when things are better left unsaid or to THINK REALLY HARD before saying anything to avoid unecessary pain or unintentionally hurting anyone ... but then, there are also times that it is a healthy exercise to just let it all out ---- to get all the anger, hurt, suspicions,, concerns, & all the negative stuff out before it festers into something really awful. the tongue *in our cases, the computer/internet/email* is a double edged sword. when the WRITTEN WORD leaves us we can never take it back. we can apologize until the cows come home, until we are blue in the face but the effect remains. the damage has been done and humpty dumpty can be glued together to look like new but the scars remain even if they are naked to the human eye.
i hope that we can accept each other in spite of our own faults ...... yes, there will always be people who cannot refrain themselves even in our supposed state of maturity. trust me, i know! i work in this retirement community and i still witness it amongst them. i wish i can blame it all in senility and dementia. unfortunately, there are just some pure B*TCHES and age has not mellowed them one bit in any way. it applies to both male and female, mind you. i just end up feeling sorry for them because of their misery. yes, they are miserable and hide behind the persona they have created for themselves. they do not know any better and they have lived it for so long they dont know how to change.
i am glad we have this opportunity to voice our concerns, our pain .... i am saddened by the pain those of you affected by this are experiencing. i wish i can take/ease/remove it from you. i just hope that you will remember that THAT WHICHEVER OR WHATEVER CANNOT KILL YOU CAN ONLY MAKE YOU STRONGER .... it will pass and i will pray for each one of you that it will be soon.
as far as demanding apologies, i will have to say .... what is the point of demanding it and wherein is the satisfaction should you get it but it may not necessarily be sincere? excuse me, maybe because i am a cebuana or maybe because i am simply me. i am not used to saying po and ho, but it is pretty much the same response i gave to DAGUL many eons ago. i can inflect as much rudeness and sarcasm in my pos and hos should i feel like it. i will never come across as being respectful and polite simply because of a word DEMANDED of me. what is more important is what comes from the heart. we can never change people, it is downright foolishness to think so. we cannot control people either. what WE CAN change is our own attitude. this is where we have control. we can control or change our own actions, this is where our choices lie. we can choose to remain angry, we can choose to remain a *b*tch*, or we can choose to be a better person with a better attitude towards our fellowmen. we can choose to apologize whether required, deserving or not.
speaking of the heart ..... what i said earlier about the word, spoken or written, being like a sword --- it can be used to kill or it can be used to protect. it is our choice. it is a very powerful weapon because it is from there we can truly create serious damage or sin. as the bible says (forgive me for quoting), it is not what one puts in one's mouth that causes one to sin but what proceeds from the mouth ... for what proceeds from the mouth is what one's heart contains. if what proceeds from the mouth is foul then you know what the heart is full of.
LOVE is the greatest .... let us learn it, relearn it. we can start learning all about love by learning to forgive. it is a hard thing to do, i've had many years of practice/studying/learning how to forgive. it will be a lifelong endeavor. it is hard to let go. it is funny but it is even harder to let go of our pain and hurts. it is weird how we, people, can claim that we dont want to get hurt and we dont want to feel pain but the moment we do ---- we dont want to let go! prolly because in pain, we can at least know we live and we are alive. it is a contradiction, true. life was always full of contradictions.
i have been through a lot in my short lifetime .... and i did not even have/share it with you, my friends, when i went to school with you ... at the time when i went through them, i barely knew anyone of you .... and now that i know you all a little better, i still am going through stuff in life as i am sure every single one of you are doing, too. i am grateful for knowing you and having you around because i can vent some of my frustrations whether you like to hear them or not. those who have passed on, have it easier than to those of us left behind. i believe this is part of the reason why we can cry/mourn so much for them leaving us behind. many a time, i've wished i was in their place or that i could take their place. their time is up
and they are done with living. the rest of us have to carry on, good times and bad. we will continue living life to the fullest, we will continue making mistakes. we can only hope that we can learn from each one of them.
bear in mind, there will always be bad communicators just as there will be good ones. bad apples with the good apples. how else will we know the difference? how else will be know how bad differs from good if there was no opposite to begin with? we can appreciate only the good once we know what is bad. let us also learn patience ...... patience for others to keep up, patience for others to grow up! in time they will, hopefully before i start using a bloody walker or cane people! kung hindi pa, paghahampasin ko na kayo ng tungkod. hmp!
dang, i am getting downright maudlin! ............ i feel like a bloody hippie at the moment ........... spouting philosophical here. LINTSAK NA YAN! time out na .....
basta know this, I LOVE YOU all .... :) ..... i wish i could hold you all in my arms now to give you a warm embrace .......... sige na nga ..... *group-hug sa lahat na* .... hehehehehe
bago ko makalimutan, DOC .... ano ibig sabihin ng salimuot? ... di ko gets eh. wag masyadong malalim ang tagalog ... di ko masisid ... bwehehehe ..... paki translate, malay mo ma inspire uli ako mag compose ng tagalog poem neto ..... hahahaha
labs yu ol todo todo walang breyk walang kambyo,
hello ebriwan,
there are times when things are better left unsaid or to THINK REALLY HARD before saying anything to avoid unecessary pain or unintentionally hurting anyone ... but then, there are also times that it is a healthy exercise to just let it all out ---- to get all the anger, hurt, suspicions,, concerns, & all the negative stuff out before it festers into something really awful. the tongue *in our cases, the computer/internet/email* is a double edged sword. when the WRITTEN WORD leaves us we can never take it back. we can apologize until the cows come home, until we are blue in the face but the effect remains. the damage has been done and humpty dumpty can be glued together to look like new but the scars remain even if they are naked to the human eye.
i hope that we can accept each other in spite of our own faults ...... yes, there will always be people who cannot refrain themselves even in our supposed state of maturity. trust me, i know! i work in this retirement community and i still witness it amongst them. i wish i can blame it all in senility and dementia. unfortunately, there are just some pure B*TCHES and age has not mellowed them one bit in any way. it applies to both male and female, mind you. i just end up feeling sorry for them because of their misery. yes, they are miserable and hide behind the persona they have created for themselves. they do not know any better and they have lived it for so long they dont know how to change.
i am glad we have this opportunity to voice our concerns, our pain .... i am saddened by the pain those of you affected by this are experiencing. i wish i can take/ease/remove it from you. i just hope that you will remember that THAT WHICHEVER OR WHATEVER CANNOT KILL YOU CAN ONLY MAKE YOU STRONGER .... it will pass and i will pray for each one of you that it will be soon.
as far as demanding apologies, i will have to say .... what is the point of demanding it and wherein is the satisfaction should you get it but it may not necessarily be sincere? excuse me, maybe because i am a cebuana or maybe because i am simply me. i am not used to saying po and ho, but it is pretty much the same response i gave to DAGUL many eons ago. i can inflect as much rudeness and sarcasm in my pos and hos should i feel like it. i will never come across as being respectful and polite simply because of a word DEMANDED of me. what is more important is what comes from the heart. we can never change people, it is downright foolishness to think so. we cannot control people either. what WE CAN change is our own attitude. this is where we have control. we can control or change our own actions, this is where our choices lie. we can choose to remain angry, we can choose to remain a *b*tch*, or we can choose to be a better person with a better attitude towards our fellowmen. we can choose to apologize whether required, deserving or not.
speaking of the heart ..... what i said earlier about the word, spoken or written, being like a sword --- it can be used to kill or it can be used to protect. it is our choice. it is a very powerful weapon because it is from there we can truly create serious damage or sin. as the bible says (forgive me for quoting), it is not what one puts in one's mouth that causes one to sin but what proceeds from the mouth ... for what proceeds from the mouth is what one's heart contains. if what proceeds from the mouth is foul then you know what the heart is full of.
LOVE is the greatest .... let us learn it, relearn it. we can start learning all about love by learning to forgive. it is a hard thing to do, i've had many years of practice/studying/learning how to forgive. it will be a lifelong endeavor. it is hard to let go. it is funny but it is even harder to let go of our pain and hurts. it is weird how we, people, can claim that we dont want to get hurt and we dont want to feel pain but the moment we do ---- we dont want to let go! prolly because in pain, we can at least know we live and we are alive. it is a contradiction, true. life was always full of contradictions.
i have been through a lot in my short lifetime .... and i did not even have/share it with you, my friends, when i went to school with you ... at the time when i went through them, i barely knew anyone of you .... and now that i know you all a little better, i still am going through stuff in life as i am sure every single one of you are doing, too. i am grateful for knowing you and having you around because i can vent some of my frustrations whether you like to hear them or not. those who have passed on, have it easier than to those of us left behind. i believe this is part of the reason why we can cry/mourn so much for them leaving us behind. many a time, i've wished i was in their place or that i could take their place. their time is up
and they are done with living. the rest of us have to carry on, good times and bad. we will continue living life to the fullest, we will continue making mistakes. we can only hope that we can learn from each one of them.
bear in mind, there will always be bad communicators just as there will be good ones. bad apples with the good apples. how else will we know the difference? how else will be know how bad differs from good if there was no opposite to begin with? we can appreciate only the good once we know what is bad. let us also learn patience ...... patience for others to keep up, patience for others to grow up! in time they will, hopefully before i start using a bloody walker or cane people! kung hindi pa, paghahampasin ko na kayo ng tungkod. hmp!
dang, i am getting downright maudlin! ............ i feel like a bloody hippie at the moment ........... spouting philosophical here. LINTSAK NA YAN! time out na .....
basta know this, I LOVE YOU all .... :) ..... i wish i could hold you all in my arms now to give you a warm embrace .......... sige na nga ..... *group-hug sa lahat na* .... hehehehehe
bago ko makalimutan, DOC .... ano ibig sabihin ng salimuot? ... di ko gets eh. wag masyadong malalim ang tagalog ... di ko masisid ... bwehehehe ..... paki translate, malay mo ma inspire uli ako mag compose ng tagalog poem neto ..... hahahaha
labs yu ol todo todo walang breyk walang kambyo,
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