ish a wonderful thing ....

ish a wonderful thing to have friends who have no problems sharing with you their knowledge, their sympathetic ear ....... i know i am blest with wonderful friends ........ i just wanted to reiterate that fact.

lately, i've been in touch with this friend who seems to be always there when in fact, she is thousands and thousands of miles away. however, this internet, web, whatever you call it, has really made it possible to communicate with someone an ocean away with the flick of a finger. it makes me surpised how little people have taken advantage of this, not because they do not have the means to access or use the internet, but simply for lack of desire or the will to use the computer.

some of them claim that it is too cold or impersonal ..... i am not saying that one should lose touch with the people around you, what i am saying is that one can lose the opportunity to feel enriched by the friends one can acquire and maintain communication with. not always will you have people available despite the amount of friends and family one might have ...... i know, i've experienced that. one was memorable enough, i remembered the month and year ----- april 2001.

i have a lot of friends and family members at hand, but circumstances or situations ---- i never believed that possible till then ---- can prevent them to be in communication with you just when you needed someone to talk to.

i just want to say, i am so happy that the internet or the web has made it possible to increase my stash of friends and loved ones.

on that note, my newfound friend :) and all other friends and loved ones ....... i just want to say again to you, I LOVE YOU and know that someone is keeping you in prayer.

why? why? why?

does this blogger do this to me? ... it purposely aggrevates me .... i swear! .... this thing has a personal vendetta on me ...... like i need enemies? ....... why do machines do these? ... the revenge of the machines?

i dunno

i dunno what title to use, i dunno what else to do, i dunno how this stupid blogger works sometimes, i dunno why every now and then it just simply decides to make my head ache ...... sometimes, you try to do everything right in life and no matter how .... it still comes out wrong or it shows error or that life can be a pain ....... for the simple reason that while there is sunshine, so there is rain, where there is light, so there is darkness .... and so on and so forth ...... in the meantime ..... i do everything right as far as uploading and editing on this blog ..... and it bloody has the nerve to say .... page not found ......... suffering succotash! you try to save the templates, settings, etc. .... and half the time, i just want to take an ax and chop this computer in half .... 'cept, i know it is not the computer's fault but the server ....... the server of the site for the blogging ..... crap! crap! crap! and gazillion more craps!

ish done!

finally .... completed all that manual upload of old writings ... i can seriously CHILL, big time! .... *patting self on back again* .... if you're a visitor ... thanks! ... kung bwisitor ka ... SAMPALIN MO SALIRI MO! ---- SAGPA-A NG NAWONG NIMONG UNGGOYA KA! .... hehehehe, saon na lang.

bugger!

14 of them ... take note .... 14 uploads today .... that was quite an effort! ... then, of course, my wonderful classmate Bo, tries to introduce me to some french guy ..... bloody heck! ... the french man turned out to be polish ---- just living in france .... and what else was significant? he prolly has gone to the old country (my old country) more often than me ..... man oh man.

what was weird was that i felt like i was being given the third degree .... not that it bothered me. it was more like ..... *quit making my cursor jump from one window to the next when i am trying to type something* .... i was talking at the same time with Bo when he came online. i was having a nice one way voice conference with Bo when this guy sorta pulls me over his voice conference and i ended up getting cut off mid-sentence with Bo ..... *sigh* .... then comes the third degree, the interview .... how long have been in the US? ... which one are you in the pix? (turns out, he was looking at the wrong profile, well not wrong in that it was still my profile but an old one) ... when was the last time you were in the Philippines? ...... can you hear me? ....... so, you are an american? (now, that sounded like i had just contracted some major contagious disease)

so many questions in a span of seconds when all along my mind was on my STUPID blog HTML! ..... i am so, so irritated by that little thing sticking out on the side ... cosmetic, i know ... but the little perfectionist in me is driving me crazy! .... i don't need to be driven crazy, it is a short walk! .... ughhhh! so totally irritating. finally, out of frustration, i gave up working on that HTML business, and politely said my goodbyes to my newfound friend. i dunno what else we talked about, i was not quite present in the convo. bwehehehe

Oh! ... and i saw his pix just as he saw my current one ..... hhhmmmm, this is a public blog ... so i better learn to keep certain things to myself ....... all it needs is one of my family members discovering this and i am TOAST! ...... i'll never hear the end of it. do i care? not particularly ---- i do care about hurting them in any way, shape, or fashion. wow, amazing how certain things are just OFF LIMITS area ..... we create are own boundaries and we do it voluntarily with no outside influence except this deep down core in us that holds us back. hhhmm, one could go down there and see what it's really made of, i suppose.

well, signing off here for now.

such a pain!

i still am not so there ...... drat! .. almost ... now if if a pair of scissors would serve... would just trim the right side ... or see if i could get me another piece of paper that was wider so the border is not sticking out.....

takori

dang! .... now where did the background of this blog go?.....all other links still have it .... crap! ..... another pain in the you know where to work on .... drat, drat, drat, and double drat! ... ugghhhhh ..... will just try and work on it tonite ......man oh man .... suffering succotash!

i am pooped!

after all that, i am ready for bed and some chilling .... uploading more than 10 old writings is not a fun thing to do .... my fingers are cramping and my nails are breaking ....*weeping* ... darn it! .... ish going to cost me money to have them fixed! .... lols.

what did you think i was weeping for? exhaustion? NOTTT!!! .. i am tired, yes! ... but, my pretty nails .... *sigh* .... do i sound superficial? maybe .... BUT THEY ARE MY NAILLLLLLSSSSSS!!!!!

now that i've got that out of my system .... let us get back to recovering some of our mislocated charm school training. tis not a good thing to lose our control they say ..... but, when i think that it is what they say and not what i say, i might as well be back in military training. why do they dictate what i do?

drat! there i go again, rattling on ..... time to go to sleep and i am still rattling on ... making all this clacking noise in the middle of my living room ..... if not for some of the street noise .... all i am hearing is clickety clack, clickety clack ..... tis annoying actually especially when i can't seem to stop .... i just keep going and going and going .. when i should have stopped like ... HOURRRSSSS AGOOO ... hint! hint! to my own self

dohhhhh!!!!, girlfriend, its called...stand up!...and move YOUR ARSE! .... drat....why do these fingers keep going and going and i know..i am not going anywhere in particular...this convo..has long been over and i am hitting a dead end....however, as i try to get up....back i go again....round and round....oh darn!....i shall find the will..i shall find the will....to get my hiny up this chair..and stop this fingers...from doing all this walking across the keyboard...my typing teachers would all be so proud of me..with the speed.

*sigh* ... ciao for now ..... really have to go.

site meter thingy

i hope this blasted thing works ... because....one hour on it is too much..

i am so pleased!

so pleased with myself, i am soooo totally patting me in the back .... *lol* ..... now that i have overcome some of this LINK hurdle ...... i still think it's a pain in the arse, however, i am just so happy that some inspiration fell upon me last night that i was able to figure this blasted business.

*sigh* this is it for now, work calls ...... i just needed to get that out of my chest .... *humongous smile on face, now*

ciao!

Links

they are a pain in the you know where ...... now, did i ask to be an IT or a computer expert? NOOOOOOOOO ..... far be it for me to usurp them in their purpose in life ..... one has to have a purpose and they sooooo serve it so well. i hate this HTML business ..... i don't want to think, i don't want to strain the one brain cell left in me.

of course, i have to do this when i am off duty ..... and definitely when i am off duty, i prefer the smelling of roses business not the educate me and stimulate my brain cells stuff. i am a pure red-blooded female who may not be caucasian but one with a red-neck mentality. *lol*

i like simple living and a simple life ..... uneventful, with nary a wave in the horizon. CHILL!!!!! my favorite word .... for the moment, that is. ish a good thing to chill, ish a good thing to stop thinking and just rattle on about nothing in particular.

now they asked me about giving this blog's addy ...... in my head, i ask myself .... what the bloody heck for? who wants to know? and WHY?

why would anyone be interested in the ramblings of a semi senile in crisis female? after all, blog is a sort of venting medium isn't it? soooooo, who wants to listen to anyone vent? .... I DON'T! ... i don't because i rattle on too much to hear anyone else, hehehehehe. i mean, PEOPLEEEE, this is really going nowhere in particular .... if you want to go somewhere, then don't let the door hit you in the arse! you won't get the J-LO butt after several of those.

btw, why am i speaking in english only? .... wow, that was deep, hehehehehe ... dang! so deep i can't dive for it ..... *lol* .... does that mean i am shallow? ... prolly! ... do i care what you think? ........... NOTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT!!!!!!!

Pilates time .... time for my weekly torture! .... after gaining that extra 40 lbs ..... i joined the gym for the first time in my entire life on memorial w/end of 2004. hows that! actually managed to lose 10 lbs. on the first month .... but it sure took me the next 7 months to lose the next 5 lbs.

i hope to go back to an ideal weight of 115-120 lbs. i do not wish to go back to my original weight of 105 lbs. because when i look back .... dang! i look anorexic! ..... lols ....... ummm the little curves the extra pounds gained are not exactly a bad thing .... hehehehe, has been a good thing so i want to keep them ..... i dunno, for how long, i might end up piling more than i care to have. oh welllllll, as long as i am happy and enjoying them, who the bloody heck cares?

i guess whatever else i have to do ... will have to wait cause i am hungry....

why can i not just simply enter the posts by hitting enter? i am plain old lazy --- the reason for my complaints .... lol

WOW!...that took a lot of practice ... lol ... to create that chatter box.... spent an hour on that stupid thing ...lols